July 31, 2005 Bangkok, Thailand
It's official. I turned in my work permit yesterday, and am now once again unemployed. I feel like I've made the right decision, and am ready, even eager, to go home. Working in Thailand has been difficult for me, since it takes a certain kind of person to be successful here, and I am not that kind of person.
I feel like I should have some kind of nice epilogue summarizing my experience here, but I don't really know what to write. Also, I am feeling overwhelmingly negative right now. That's why I stopped writing journal entries. I'm always irritated about something, so the entries had just become a litany of complaints. For me Thailand has become the Land of Scowls.
And that's unfair. There are a lot of good things about Thailand too. I need time to process my memories so that I can present the good along with the not so good.
So, maybe I'll write some more when I'm far away from this crazy place. For now, I'll just say that Thailand is a land of contradictions, and as much as I hate it, I love it, and am sure I will return some day.
But first, China beckons! That great, mysterious land with the red-hot economy that's supposed to take over the world is calling. At last I will fulfill my dream of visiting (the dream of working there is a few years off). This is the final leg of my trek. I'm gonna go all out, and see as much as I can of that massive country in two or three months.
Once I set out in a few weeks, this website should get going again with frequent journal entries and photos (especially if II buy a $500 camera before I leave). So stay tuned...

